June 13th, 2011
Kelly Rowland’s biological father (Christopher Lovett) is begging his daughter for another chance to “let me be your dad again.” Lovett has not seen Rowland since she was 7 years old. Here’s what he tells the Sunday Mirror:
Christopher, 65, says: “I loved her from the moment she took her first breath. I *remember as clear as day Kelly and I singing together, from the moment she could talk. Our *favourite songs were by Stevie Wonder. I would put one headphone in my ear and the other in hers and we would sing and sing, so happy to be together.
“But then I lost my job at a *transportation company, sank into a depression about money and began drinking more and more. The failure to provide for my *family fuelled an anger that I will be ashamed of until my dying day.
“It wasn’t physical between me and Kelly’s mum, but there were many days and nights when Kelly would be bawling her eyes out, clutching my leg begging me, ‘Please daddy stop shouting at mummy’. That image of her howling, begging me to stop will haunt me forever.
“I really hoped I would get to make it up to her. Sadly I am still waiting for that day. But I can’t give up hope. That’s why there is a room in my house which I have decorated especially for Kelly, just in case she comes through the front door.”
?On attempts of trying to find Kelly, but her aunts and family shutting him out:
“When Doris *challenged me, I would just lose it. No parent should scream and shout in front of their child, and I am sorry to say there were too many times to *mention that Kelly heard me *screaming abuse at her mother. Sometimes she would run to her *bedroom screaming, others she would cling to my trouser leg begging me to stop. When the *electricity was cut off and we *received an eviction letter we agreed for Doris to take Kelly to her aunt’s house while I sorted things out.
“Little did I know the day they left would be the last time I would see my wife and *daughter ever again.
“Every time I phoned her aunt’s house she told me Kelly and her mum were out. I had no job, no money, no car and just no way of getting the 20 miles to where they were staying.
“When six months had passed I begged a friend for a ride to her aunt’s house and she told me they had moved to Texas. I begged her to give me an *address, but she flat-out refused.” For the next 23 years, *Christopher did *everything he could to find Kelly, who will appear on the X Factor in August. He says: “I knew I had to stop drinking, get a job or I would never see my *daughter again.
“And I did.
“But by then it was too late and they were gone, the two people I loved with all my heart and that tore me up and still does today.” At one point he drove 800 miles to *Texas and walked from hotel to *hotel in a failed attempt to find Kelly and her mother.
In 2000 he heard Destiny’s Child were performing in North Carolina so he drove for eight hours and bought a ticket.
He says: “I sat for the whole concert in one of the cheap seats at the back with tears of joy and utter despair rolling down my face. I wrote a note and begged a security guard to pass it to her.
“It said, ‘Darling I have been looking for you. I am so proud of you and I love you so much and I just long to tell you that in *person. Love Dad’. But no matter how much I begged the guard he would not believe I was her father.” Christopher – who has framed Destiny’s Child *posters on the walls of the Atlanta home he shares with his second wife Gracie – says he wants nothing from his daughter.
He just wants to tell her how proud he is and how much he loves her.
He adds tearfully: “I own a big home now and have retired so I don’t want any of Kelly’s fortune, I just want her love. I just hope she does not become such a big star in England on X Factor that she forgets about her dad *completely.
“I’m getting old now – I just hope she reads this and doesn’t leave getting back in touch with me before it is too late.”